Had cello lesson today.. I showed my teacher the score for "Pomp and Circumstance" and he said it's an advanced-level piece.. Ok I felt better... He said it's not my standard yet and I should work on my basics first.. Cos bad habits are hard to break in future. So true.. Maybe I shouldn't be too hard on myself.. Sigh..

The problem with me is that I always think "If others can do it, why can't I?" But I realised.. Though I can also but others have already conquered their levels 2, 3, 4, 5........ So If I'm at level 1, I should just give my best in level 1 first before moving on.. =) *revelation!*

Jeff is truly my da ge!!! One and only... When it's time to be harsh on me, hmm let's just say.. He will grab the opportunity.. by this I know that our relationship is that secure.. I will never forget once he scolded me so badly that I broke down in front of his family... But we later shook hands and made up.. Case closed. =)

I don't exactly like people to sugar-coat their words.. just say what you really mean. Then I will know that you are comfortable enough to let me see your inner world.. Of cos we may not be in coherent agreement but I always love a friendly debate which leave me thinking "oh ya ah.. Why didn't I think of that.."

Anyway back to Jeff.. Had a conv with him in msn..

aileen: Sighhhhh Jeff.... I feel that.. *censored*
Jeff: nonsense la
Jeff: course not
Jeff: thats a lie, from the devil
Jeff: learn to counter it by discipling your mind
Jeff: 2 Timothy 1:7
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
Jeff: sound mind are also translated as "disciplined mind"
Jeff: means u tell your brain what to think
Jeff: every negative thought u have, quote a scripture and says excatly the opposite
Jeff: on a daily basis
Jeff: it helps to think that u can do ALL things, ALL things
Jeff: that means, if Jesus' hands can break bread and feel 5000 people with 5 loaves and 2 fish, then we CAN too
Jeff: same Holy Spirit
Jeff: nothing's changed
Aileen: ='(

Sometimes we just need some raw talking to get it in our head.. I love raw talks. Hard pushes.. People to show me how to do things.. not TELL me what to do...

*A hard fall creates a higher bounce.*